I did it. I finished my very first CrossFit Open. The past five weeks seemed to go by very quickly, as the anticipation of each Thursday and Friday night made the days fly by. The excitement of it always looming was fun and I am happy that I stepped out of my comfort zone and did it!
I played a mighty cast of characters through it all. The first week I was a small David ready to fight giants, the second I was the foolish and overconfident hare who lost the race to the tortoise (burpees), the third I joined all of the other phoenix as I rose up from taking a hard fall, and the fourth I was a frustrated athlete, stressed and in pain desperately searching for her “why.” It was the scariest rollercoaster I’ve ever been on. And the most exhilarating and fulfilling too.
Upon reflection, those winding loops and fast descents created the character who completed 18.5 with passion. Every movement, even when I was tired, was done with joyful meaning in celebration of endurance and dedication. I felt so strong and focused in those seven minutes and I’ve found myself searching for the reason behind it in the days following, because it greatly impacted my performance.
I think that answer is….because I decided to be passionate, joyful, purposeful, celebratory, strong, and focused. I made that choice. And that concept in itself is the greatest gain that came from the entire experience for me. No matter how trained or strong you are, the way you think about it can make it or break it for you. This was something I always knew but had not yet truly understood until I travelled the journey that led me to its repeated obvious demonstrations.
As I walk away from 2018’s CrossFit Open, I realize that my thought process is the greatest weakness that needs to be strengthened through daily practice this year, along with pull ups, of course. I am truly looking forward to seeing how that work will play out in The Open next year.
And so, I conclude this final blog entry with sincere gratitude for the opportunity to share my ideas with a group of supporting, loving people. Thank you, Coach Lauren, for identifying the value of my voice and providing me a wonderful outlet.
And to all of the other incredible members of the CrossFit Arx family, your comments, conversations, and encouragement mean the world to me. It was an honor to share this experience with you. Congratulations on a job well done. You are all amazing and inspiring! I will “see you at the box!”